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I look into your eyes,
And thought about your life,
Thought about your feelings,
And I could not describe my own,
It is just a lie,
So you told yourself over and over,
Ignoring what I say,
Because I do not say it right,
But it is hard to describe,
The feelings deep inside,
You find it easy,
But each night it is a fight,
Admitting the truth is harder than you think,
It is hard to express,
What is deep inside of me,
But I will be the one,
To stand by you indefinitely,
Each promise I make,
I will never think twice to break,
So hold me in your arms,
Submit to my touch,
Pray to know one else,
Hope we will never die,
Despite how cold the night is,
Despite all the pain,
Who cares about the world,
It is only us right now,
Look into my eyes,
And don't expect a word,
Let me be who I am,
And do not judge my worth,
Accept me for who I am,
Don’t let go,
This is my promise,
I will never go,
Tell me your life,
Tell me your dreams,
Tell me how much,
And I will show what I mean,
You will understand,
Exactly what I mean,
No one can change,
The feelings inside of me,
Right now,
Forever,
And ever till we die,
I will be here by your side,
Holding you tight.
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I know I always say this, (I am gonna post more!) but meh give me a break I try my best and just forget and forget. I know though that I have been writing still at least. So I still write... just the content of that writing isn't always creative. Wow that picture of mine is sooo bloody old. like... hmmm a year maybe more... yeah definetly more. I figure about july of last year.
Basically:
I have 1 High school diplomia
2 College diplomia
and a few job interviews to attend to.
For some reason I applied to some acting and modeling agency. Well if Ugly Betty can do it so can I! meh I dunno though kinda shocked i got a call back or something. They probably do that to everyone though.
Yep... still single.
No kids.
Never took up smoking.
Don't eat still...
and i haven't shaved in 2 weeks so the jesus/sam roberts look kinda is with me at the moment.
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Your Fault - By Michael Christopher Darling
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I will not.. by Michael Christopher Darling
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Hope in love by Michael Christopher Darling 2:36 am 10/23/2005
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Alone in the Dark - By Michael Darling
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I thought of you, By Michael Darling Created 10 minutes ago after starring at the ceiling over my bed.
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Ok basically when I get bored i sign up for many sites. After last year I signed up for a dating site for the fun of it. Now generally I get the typical "UR HOT, WAT U DO 4 FUN!" or other like minded brain numbing responses. The other day though i got one of those rare ones. Now Before I continue on I will bring everyone up to speed on the conversation at hand.
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For the First Time - By Michael Darling
For the first time,
I know what it feels,
When I stare into your eyes,
And watch you smile,
For the first time,
I hold you close,
And understand the feelings,
That two people share.
There would have been a moment,
A period that I would never believe,
That holding you so close,
Would change everything I believed,
But this is the moment,
That we share,
It is the first time,
And never the last.
You smell so sweet,
And you are soft to hold,
There is a thing about,
Your aura and glow,
I do not know why,
I am so into you,
But this is the first time,
That I am holding you.
As the moonlight,
Gazes down on us,
The sweet serene landscape,
Means nothing without you,
It seems like a century,
Since we held each other tight,
This is our first moment,
And memory,
But darling I promise you,
It will never be our last.
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Last Moment - By Michael Darling
As I walk through the valley of death,
I close my eyes,
And pray until my very last breath,
Blinded my many feelings,
And inhibitions,
False hopes,
And penniless crimes,
I ran for miles,
Hoping for a next time,
I said I would change,
I prayed every day,
I looked into heaven,
But dreamed of only hell,
The sound the gun shot,
Ringing like a bell,
This is my time,
A single verse,
On every line,
Lost in a rap artists lyrical rhyme,
The fences the walls,
The emotional falls,
The pain and the suffering,
All I have been doing is bluffing,
One day at a time,
One moment blind,
Holding my nine,
Clicking it back,
The holster snapping with a crack,
My heart stuttering,
Beating with every step,
This is my last chance,
My last moment,
The gun cocks,
I look up,
The story does not matter,
Only the ending,
My finger presses against the trigger,
Never ending,
Always bending,
Driving it in,
This is my last moment,
And for everything in my life,
But I have nothing really left to say.
Aug. 1st, 2005 @ 11:27 pm
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Newest episode
huh you like that huh, that is holy water, the power of christ compells you bitch!
Jun. 16th, 2005 @ 04:31 am
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Another Poem done without 10 minutes on the spot.
You are Gone by Michael Christopher Darling
What do I know of loss?
I know it too much,
How can I say?
I miss you so much,
The feelings buried,
Deep inside,
Are hard to express,
To you,
But you are gone,
Out of my life,
You left me for some reason,
Left me to cry,
And wonder what you,
Do with your life,
But you are gone,
And out of my life.
I remember those times we use to sit,
Starring out the window,
Thinking of everything,
I would hold you,
And hold you so close,
And tell you how much,
I loved you so.
But now I sit,
Alone in my chair,
Without you breathing in my face,
Loving me only,
The same ever since we first met.
I remember a time,
When I was so cold,
So lonely at night,
Homesick and alone,
You came to me,
And lied by my side,
You gentle humming,
Put me gently asleep.
But everyday I look at your pictures,
And feel the emptiness deep inside,
You were my love,
My friend,
My idol my life,
But now you are gone,
And out of my life.
Now everyday I stare outside,
Stand on the porch wishing you were inside,
Search the distance,
Praying you are,
Close and wanting to be my side,
You pictures are all I have left of you,
The times and the memories,
I really miss you.
I remember a time,
When I gave up,
On life and on love,
And my feelings to,
You took the knife from me,
And toss it aside,
You came in my areas,
And spoke to me your words,
Relieving the tension inside,
You were so warm,
And so loving,
You kept me around,
You did not wish I would die.
So everyday I sit here,
Dying inside,
Wanting to hold you,
Wanting to touch you,
There is no way,
That I can express,
The feelings about,
How I hate how you have left,
And always throughout my life,
I will miss you to death.
I wrote this for no girl, no boy, my parent and no sibling. There was this very important person in my life, but he was no person. His name was Smirnoff, and he was no booze. He was my cat, and I got him back in September. He was a great alternative for a relationship and I loved him so much. He really did make me feel better about myself. He gave unconditional love and only expected it back. How easy is that? Well the other week he got out of the house and I did not notice, nor did anyone else, for many hours. When I did notice I realized he was not around. I put up signs and I called the shelter. I hoped he would come home. But he has not, nor does it seem that he will ever. He was the best friend I have ever had. He only gave and never asked back. It is a sad day honestly in my life, and it has been a sad day for the past several. But my mother does not think I care, how can I express the pain. We all deal with it through one way or another. I honestly miss him with all my heart, but he was more than just my cat. Like I said he was my friend, he was my brace in this hard world. Everyday I will wait, and hope he comes home. I think this is the first time I have ever explained something I wrote.
- Michael Darling.
Jun. 16th, 2005 @ 01:09 am
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Like yesterday this one was written on the spot.
Dreams - By Michael Darling
Where are the answers to my life?
Lost in a season of confusion,
Blinded by dreams and destinations,
Confused on which way I really need to go,
The clouds and the summer sky,
The feelings of,
Being lost inside,
Trying to get a foot in the door,
That will lead me into my life,
So when does the sun shine in,
And lead me to the destination,
Cause all I see here is confusion,
And only questions in my heart tonight.
I only wish,
And I do not wish on any star,
My dreams and aspirations are not far,
The hope I felt when I reached out,
Is the hope I seek throughout my life.
There are points,
And single moments,
When I look up into the night,
Starring at the starry night,
Feeling only words of sadness,
Depression and pain,
And uncertainty,
That this life,
Will be out of reach.
But I scream out,
And scream out loud,
Break the sound barrier,
Buried deep inside,
Flail my arms to the side,
Release me from this uncertainty in my soul.
Like a cool summer breeze,
The mating call of swans and geese,
The cheerful laughter,
And the heat,
Within a kiss,
That is unique,
Drowning in not the warm waters,
Feeling the heartbeat of another,
I know I will find a way,
And live each and every day,
And fight for what I want so bad,
Because these are the dreams,
That I have.
Jun. 16th, 2005 @ 12:54 am
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Schoolyard Bully
You are 42% Rational, 57% Extroverted, 85% Brutal, and 28% Arrogant.
You are the Schoolyard Bully! You focus more on feelings than rationality, and thus tend to be driven by your emotions. You are probably easy to anger or annoy, for instance. You are also an extrovert who wouldn't mind having a lot of attention, although you may not always get it. Another character trait you possess is your brutality, manifested by the fact that you tend to be aggressive and do not care about the well-being of others. Also, you exhibit signs of humility, leading one to conlude that you are actually insecure, because very few people are truly humble AND brutal. Thus, like any schoolyard bully, you seek constant attention for yourself and have no issues with administering beatings because you are quite emotional and easy to upset. Not only that, but your insecurity may be a prime motivation for your brutality. As psychologists have noted, most schoolyard bullies only pick on others because they have a negative self-image. This could possibly be true of you. In short, your personality defects are your brutality, extroversion, irrationality, and your possible insecurity. Go pick on someone your own size!
To put it less negatively:
1. You are more INTUITIVE than rational.
2. You are more EXTROVERTED than introverted.
3. You are more BRUTAL than gentle.
4. You are more HUMBLE than arrogant.
Compatibility:
Your exact opposite is the Haughty Intellectual. (Bullies like to beat up nerds, after all.)
Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Bitch-Slap, the Capitalist Pig, and the Class Clown.
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If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42% Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well. Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored near fifty percent for certain traits.
The other personality types:
The Emo Kid: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Humble.
The Starving Artist: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant.
The Bitch-Slap: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Humble.
The Brute: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant.
The Hippie: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble.
The Televangelist: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant.
The Schoolyard Bully: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble.
The Class Clown: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.
The Robot: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Humble.
The Haughty Intellectual: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant.
The Spiteful Loner: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Humble.
The Sociopath: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant.
The Hand-Raiser: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble.
The Braggart: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant.
The Capitalist Pig: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble.
The Smartass: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.
My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 21% on Arrogance
Jun. 15th, 2005 @ 03:31 am
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A Goodbye, by Michael Christopher Darling
It is a dark night,
And raining outside,
The thunder cracks,
Across the empty sky,
I lean back,
Against the window and cry,
Because I remember the times,
I knew who I was,
But as each day moves on I can't think,
I feel like I am drowning,
In the words from my heart,
I am not sure if I really need to stay,
But deep in my heart I know I have to.
I am alone,
And you walked out of my life,
And here I have stay each and every night,
Begging you would,
Show up at my door and,
Tell me that,
It will be alright.
My love runs deeper than you can believe,
But a dark room is where it stays,
Why did you leave me my precious one?
My heart fell to the ground and shattered,
I do not know what I can ever live for,
I never thought we would divide,
But always stay together to the end.
Deep in my heart,
It pains to think of it,
But I can not because I am always alone,
I just can not face the facts,
That you will never be by my side,
Never be in my arms in silence,
Never look again deep in my eyes,
And tell me you love me.
I need you,
Please come back to me,
I am on my hands and knees begging
In front of your picture on the wall,
Begging only for you to stay,
I am going crazy without you,
It is dark outside and raining,
And those who walk by will never understand,
On how much I hurt inside,
And how much I am crying,
And how much I am dying deep inside.
Jun. 15th, 2005 @ 03:18 am
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http://www.theaircanadacentre.com/calendar.php?view=event&eventID=798
I just won tickets to see Coldplay live in Concert Downtown Toronto! I am lucky sob!
Jun. 10th, 2005 @ 11:52 am
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Yes I am still alive even though it has been a good year and some since i last posted! :) anyways yeah just me saying HI
Jun. 3rd, 2005 @ 11:11 pm
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got bored folks so i bring you installement #5 of me being an idiot
http://www.livejournal.com/community/fuzzypussybunny/56046.html#cutid1
enjoy :P
btw, i am working on a spiderman episode i "filmed" in my own house, it is called spiderman vs groundskeeper willy! i wonder how long it takes me to get around to finishing it up :P
Jul. 21st, 2004 @ 01:34 pm
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Jul. 18th, 2004 @ 01:11 am
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( Poem: Heart )
Jul. 14th, 2004 @ 10:10 pm
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( Poem: Deep )
Jul. 14th, 2004 @ 10:09 pm
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| » Re: Some old memories |
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( Memories )
Jun. 16th, 2004 @ 08:29 pm
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| » Poem: Tonight |
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( Poem: Tonight )
Jun. 7th, 2004 @ 09:59 pm
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| M | Masculine | | I | Intelligent | | C | Colorful | | H | Humorous | | A | Adventurous | | E | Elitist | | L | Lazy | | | | D | Delicious | | A | Awesome | | R | Rich | | L | Lovable | | I | Intense | | N | Neat | | G | Gentle |
Name Acronym Generator
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May. 25th, 2004 @ 11:30 pm
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| » Meh Arrested in Belleville |
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What a crappy day, i get arrested,
for what?
Assault with a weapon,
well do you not need to hit someone with a weapon for it to be assault, i think i shoulda got like "point" or "pushing" with a weapon. and in my own house, *looks in the law books about this* to someone who i know has been robbing me for a few months, now where is the wrong in this? although i was released 2 hours after being arrested with minimal conditiions despite my history.
Stupid thing, they gave me his address and name,
All i have to do is show up in court, and stay away from him and swords. well *talks to some friends*, first of all he should never have been in my house, i don't care, i don't trust him alone.
And then when i proceeded to approach him and he got scared " i didn't do anything, i was just standing" tells me he was up to something or has been.
meh i will say more later.
May. 25th, 2004 @ 07:12 am
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In Life somethings are not worth laughing at, somethings hurt and burn deep inside, some people cry, we must hold them tightly, and actually tell them, as we look in their eyes, stay with us, please do not die. This is dedicated to my feelings, and those who experiences these feelings, in hope to bring some heart and some soul to those who have died to this.
Thank you
( The poem: Knocking on Heavens Door )
May. 20th, 2004 @ 01:54 am
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( See it here )
May. 16th, 2004 @ 11:08 am
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Invent a memory of me and post it in the comments.
Make it creative, fun, sobering, touching, whatever! It can be anything you want,
the possibilities are limitless, as long as it's something that's never actually happened.
Then, post this in your journal and see how people would like to remember you, if only the universe hadn't failed to cooperate in making it happen and leaving them the only option to make belief instead. ((This should prove to be very interesting indeed...))
May. 12th, 2004 @ 12:49 am
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1. Do laundry
2. Write Poem for Crystal for her birthday
3. Write Poem for Amberlee for her birthday
4. Write another poem
5. Write another poem
6. get together with friends
7. Write another poem for jonsies for her birthday THIS MONTH
May. 2nd, 2004 @ 04:20 am
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| » i can say idiots |
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B IE IN ID IE IR: who this
MikeCDarling: i dunno who is this
MikeCDarling: :P you messaged me
B IE IN ID IE IR: parker who u
MikeCDarling: My name is Mike Darling
MikeCDarling: you still messaged me :P
B IE IN ID IE IR: do u now natile
MikeCDarling: uhmm :P
MikeCDarling: natile?
B IE IN ID IE IR: yah
MikeCDarling: hmm maybe
MikeCDarling: i might know you too
MikeCDarling: i just do not know this moment
B IE IN ID IE IR: i no u do
MikeCDarling: how do you know?
MikeCDarling: since i do not
MikeCDarling: mind boggling eh
B IE IN ID IE IR: u are in her pro
MikeCDarling: pro?
B IE IN ID IE IR: profile
MikeCDarling: ahh
MikeCDarling: i see...
MikeCDarling: /me boggles a bit
MikeCDarling: where is it?
B IE IN ID IE IR: natile rogers
MikeCDarling: ok... is there a www.
MikeCDarling: i need a refresher
MikeCDarling: well it was nice speaking to you, have a nice day eh.
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Apr. 28th, 2004 @ 08:07 pm
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How do you like your crack?
I like my crack crisp! ha get it i like my crack crisp!
anyways now that i am laughing with only myself...
More pics:
http://www.livejournal.com/community/fuzzypussybunny/42318.html#cutid1
excuse me that squirrel is tossing acorns at me again, stupid littl.e...
Apr. 28th, 2004 @ 03:17 pm
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Do to technical difficulties i need ya to try again :)
anyway meh.
Sign my Web page Guest book here!
Sign My GUEST BOOK
Creative Minds!
Apr. 27th, 2004 @ 04:14 pm
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Apr. 27th, 2004 @ 10:52 am
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| » Crappy test |
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Don't like this test, because the creator obviously doesn't acknowledge Canadian Grammar. I proudly did poorly because i took it with a newspaper style mind towards grammar and punctuation. Bleh. I could have done better.
( Grammar Test )
Apr. 27th, 2004 @ 12:55 am
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| » retarded me again |
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http://www.livejournal.com/community/fuzzypussybunny/41544.html#cutid1
the ugly one!!! WHATS HER FACE!!!! so and so!!!! sooooo goood!
Apr. 26th, 2004 @ 06:21 am
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It annoys me talking to americans who are idiots, they assume canada has no military power or anything, are they dumb? then they go on to say how much they won ww2, are they idiots? I swear it annoys the fuck out of me. Like give respect where it is deserved, I am not going to list how much canada has done, or its strengths because i done it a million times, stop disrespecting my country.
Apr. 26th, 2004 @ 12:18 am
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"Before curiosity kills it, the cat learns more about the world than a hundred uninquisitive dogs."
- Eric *Starkeee"
Apr. 25th, 2004 @ 10:57 am
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